A World Inside This....

6 Minutes

2010-03-21T13:12:00.000-07:00

This morning, I was re-arranging my room. My window was open and I heard the little sound of jingling bells. "Fairies." I said to myself. I looked toward my window and there was Moth, standing there with her arms crossed, tapping her foot. I put down the box I was holding and went over. In my head, she told me she had to talk to me. She told me that she was getting in trouble for spending so much time with a clumsy. (Human) I told her that she has been with me for a year or so and she can't just leave now. Moth sat down, crossing her legs. She explained to me that if she did not obey her queens' orders, she would be banished from the Yarrow tree. I knew that I couldn't make her stay. She told me that I could still see fairies but I shouldn't try and become too close to them. I could get hurt. I laughed. "How could a 5 inch being hurt me?" Moth's glow turned orange, which ment she was angery. "Didn't your research tell you anything!?" she squeeked. I wrinkled my forehead. "Fairies are tricksters and if a human becomes to close and personal, they will end up knowing too much. They will have to be delt with accordingly." she pursed her lips. I thought back of the stories of fairies kidnapping babies, switching them at birth. Thats how the joke came into being. ("THOSE CAN'T BE MY REAL PARENTS, MAYBE I WAS SWITCHED AT BIRTH!") Maybe Fairies arn't just those sparkly little beings bringing seasons to the world, maybe there is more to them. I will continue my research.

Moth looked at my alarm clock. "I only had 6 minutes. I have to flee." I waved goodbye as she flew out the window.

2010-03-20T14:32:00.000-07:00

Moth is gone.

Moth Comes Out. We Meet E.P

2010-03-17T19:28:00.000-07:00

Tanisha came for a sleepover tonight. Right now she is playing with her camera whiile I blog. Moth is sitting on her little bed beside me on the window sill and E.P (evil personality) is curled up on my rug near the door. Evil Personality follows Tanisha. She made him up. I learned that Moth is prety shy when it comes to meeting new people. But, near the end, she talked to E.P. That was good.

I LOVE hanging out with Tanisha. She actually beelives that I can see fairies and I can, but most people think I am crazy. I can see them plain as day. My own mother thinks I am nuts! Being with Tanisha, I can just be myself and thats all that I can be. It is other peoples choice weither or not to judge me. :)

Fairie Dreams and a Scratch

2010-03-15T08:20:00.000-07:00

Last night, I had a dream. Moth was in it. We went beyond the gate behind my shed and we went into the realm together. The fairies were hard at work preparing their homes for the warmer seasons coming. They were taking the leaves and fabric off their windows and letting the light-bugs out of their homes. The light bugs kept the fae warm at night. One of the folk by the name of Columbine, asked me if I would like to help. I was bigger and could probably carry more then the tiny hands of their community. I agreed. After all, I want to keep peace. I collected all the twigs off of the grass and stacked them neatly near the Yarrow Tree. They would later use them for ritual fires or punishment. After that, they wanted me to bind rose stems together. They didn't tell me why they wanted binded rose stems but, I did it anyways. When I passed one of the bundles up to the tree fairies, the didn't have a good grasp and I let go. A thorn ran through my skin and it started bleeding. Columbine put a wet leaf on the cut to stop the bleeding. I asked what else I could do. Columbine dismissed me but, Moth had to stay. I agreed and left the realm.

Once I shut the gate behind me, I woke up. I sat straight up in my bed. It was 4:20am. I knew I wouldn't get back to sleep. I never do when I wake up around this time. I looked at my elbow to see if there was a scratch. To my surprise, THERE IS! I gasped. I ran my finger over it to make sure it was real. It was! I am still questioning if this was still a dream. If it was, where did this scratch come from? When Moth came back about an hour ago, I showed her. She told me that I was dreaming. If someone should dream about the fae, what happens physically in the dream, happens to the person dreaming. For example, if someone gets a scratch in the dream, when they wake up, there will be a scar. Moth told me that dreaming about fairies was dangerous. That I shouldn't do it anymore. I tried to tell her that we can not help what we dream.

Music Is A Drug

2010-03-14T13:59:00.000-07:00

I have realized my addiction to Linkin Park. I have to listen to it. Every day. It is my relief, my stress lifter. Music is like my drug. I don't look like the kind of person who would listen to such a band but I can't help it.

Moth has been inside with me all day. My mom is out so, I'm not home alone. My mom went to my grandmas house and I don't like my grandma or her yappy dogs. I prefur to stay well away from her, actually. Anyways, Moth and I packed (or started to) my suitcase for GWL. Now she is here with me, looking out the window. There are two squirrels chasing each other and she is telling me that the male is chasing the female. (for obvious reasons.)

"If your heart wares thin, I will hold you up.
And I will hide you, when it gets too much.
I'll be right beside you, I'll be right beside you."

It isn't Linkin Park, but I love that song. (Beside You-Marianas Trench)
Well, I had better go update my other blog. Thanks for reading and remember, music is the only drug you can overdose on. ♥

Moth's Profile.

2010-03-13T19:05:00.000-08:00

I have talked about Moth in my posts and I was just talking about her to my friend so I desided to do a profile so you know (or have an idea) what a real farie looks like!

Moth Cornshimmer is her full name.

She is about 4 or 5 inches tall.

Moth has pale skin and grassy-green eyes. Very thin but, being a fairy you probably gathered that. Her hair is always pulled back into a bun and it is a dirty shade of red. Moth's clothes are made from fabric that has dropped from birds nests and mittens she has found. Moth has barefeet. Her wings look like the wings of a moth. Hense her name. Her voice is faint, yet clear.

Right now, Moth isn't with me but if she is doing anything, she is probably with her fairy friends in the tree in the small feild in my backyard. I can enter their realm by going through the gate behind the shed. Last time I went to go in there, it was blocked off from the inside. I didn't dare go in, just in case. But, I was worried about moth. Luckily, she came back that evening and assured me that everything was alright. Fairys are tricksters so I hope she is telling the truth.

Sorry I Haven't Posted In A While.

2010-03-13T10:30:00.001-08:00

I have had alot going on, not to mention my other blog.
I took down Moth's home in my room, she prefurs to be outside as all fairies do. She was talking to me today and as I was talking back, my mom asked me who I was talking to. I told her I was talking to Moth. My mom laughed and walked away. She thinks I'm crazy. I can't say it enough. SHE THINKS IM CRAZY! I'm not. They are real. If they arn't how can I see them clear as day?

I don't tell too much people that I can see and communicate with the Fae. They, like my own mother, would think I am crazy. When in public, I can talk to moth telepathically. Fairies understand telepathy. I just prefur to talk to them normally and I can't even do that in my own home. Whatever, eventually I will find a friend who doesn't think I'm crazy. Eventually I will.

(The Drawing Is Not Mine And I Do Not Own It. I Just Love It!)

Unexpected Therapist

2010-03-10T10:49:00.000-08:00

Today, I was home from school because I had a therapist appointment that I totally forgot about. It was at nine-thirty. After I waited there from nine to ten, she finally called me in, not appoligizing for being late. She didn't ask anything about me, just told me things I didn't want to hear. I like to be closed up about my feelings, I have to feel real comfortable with you in order for me to crack. She got very irritated with me near the end of the session. It had gone on for an hour and a half. I had planned to go to the book depot later on, then meet my friends at noon. Do you think any of those happened? Nope. She yacked and yacked. Completely got off track and told me about herself. It was almost like I was her therapist. I don't plan on going back there.

Yesterday, I went to enter the fairy realm but to my surprise, someone had blocked the gate with a stone! I could push it open a little bit but, I did not want to intrude on the fairys. Someone was probalby taking advantage of the realm and so the guard fairys blocked off the door. I have some investigating to do.

Anyways, I had better get back to cleaning. I'm going out tonight and my house should be clean so when I get back, I don't have to do it.

Marvelous Day!

2010-03-09T13:34:00.001-08:00

Hello Anyone Who Is Reading Out There,

I had the most awsome day! The boy I liked was not a jerk today and when he smiled at me just before his bus pulled away, my heart jumped out of my chest like a jack-in-the-box! His eyes seemed to sparkle brighter and his face seemed to glow. My jaw hurt from smiling so much! Then my "boss" called me to tell me that our trip to Great Wolf Lodge is on. The boy I like is going to be there! We are going over the march break!

The reason I think that he was so nice today was that one of our friends wasn't there today. I personally think that he likes her. She is prettier than I and much thinner to. Needless to say, when I see him look at her, my heart turns into cold ice and crumbles to peices. She wont be at great wolf lodge. Last time I was there with him, we seemed to be really close and thats when I officially realized that I liked him. He was so sweet and even a touch gentlemen like! I can't wait to get there! That place is magicial I tell you, magical.

Sunday, March 07, 2010

2010-03-07T05:53:00.000-08:00

Yesterday morning, I went shopping with my friend Carolyn. I bought alot of things including a copy of Arthur Spiderwicks Feild Guide To The Fantasical World Around You and a bird cage. I will use the bird cage to make a fairy house for outside my window. I will deocrate it with shiny fabric and outside treasures that I find. The book must never leave my possession because if it falls into the wrong hands, we could all be in grave danger. I have been reading about Pixies, Sprites and Brownies. It is truly fantasical! Whoever would have thought that their would be a little world inside our planet!? If we look hard enough and if we are quiet, we can sometimes see them. Thats how I met moth. I was quiet and patient. I still don't have honey to drizzle on the rim of her thimble but she doesn't mind. I left her some pistashios yesterday and she only ate the skin. When I go to my fathers today, I will look around for some unique outside findings to add to my fairy house. Moth has taken over my inside fairy house. It is hers now. Until she moves out that is. Anyways, I should probably go and get ready. If anything happens I will post a new blog.

Moth&Charity

Saturday, March 06, 2010

2010-03-06T18:23:00.000-08:00

My mind has opened to a new and better world. My mother thinks I am crazy. I haven't told any of my friends. Why would I want to put myself through that embarassment? This new and better world is the realm of what is known as "Fantasy." I learned that fairies are real. They are! I watched the tinkerbell movie the other day and I thought that I would do some reasearch on fairies. I learned how to attract them. So, I gave it a whirl. I made a fairie house. The second day that I put out milk, the entire thimble of milk was gone. Surprised, I waited very still near the house. Very quiet. Then, there was a tap on my window. A very faint tap. I looked over to see the most beautiful thing I have ever set my eyes on. She was about 5 inchs high and was wearing a leaf-made dress. Her hair was ruby red and in two braides. I slowly went over and opened the window. She fluttered her wings and flew in and onto my dresser where the fairy house is. You can talk to a fairy two ways. The first is by simply talking to them. The second is through telepathy. You can have a whole conversation with a nearby fairy by talking in your head. She told me her name was Moth Cornshimmer and that she lived behind the shed in my backyard. She told me that she liked the milk I left for her. Next time I should drizzle honey on the rim of the thimble. I nodded, still shocked. She told me she had to go but to leave the window open just a crack so she could have somewhere warm to stay tonight. Then, she flew away without another word. I flopped onto my bed, reviewing what just happened. It wasn't in my head, she was there.

Now, Moth comes with me wherever I go. I see her with me and sometimes I see other fairies. Moth and I have become friends. Tommarrow, Moth will meet my father. A man I am not to fond of but hopefully I can be outside most of the time with Moth and my step-brother. I will update this tommarrow.

Moth&Charity.